A prayer to feel the wind...

Who would imagine?

As I sing the song below I am suddenly back at the  Splendour of the Seas 's back deck again, doing what I used to do a thousand times when I was onboard...

Feeling the wind and hoping to forget the past at same time as I dreamed about the future ashore.

That usual cold wind has helped me to think clearer about my deepest issues.  And today I'd really like and need go back to that deck again.

I've been missing the sound of  the ship across the sea, the  friendly sea wind on my face, and my “shipmates” weird noises… LOL

At least now, thank God, I do not have anything that I want to forget . Now, I only have good memories that erased those sad thoughts.

I have no doubt that my life is much better since came I back home, and even though the tough times are still a part of my real life, they also taught me that alongside of the good times they  are a unchangeable part of life.

Amazingly so, I must admit that I am still bothered by some unexpected issues nowadays ,and is in those moments  that I’d like to have a little bit of that sea wind blowing in my face, helping me  keep my mind and blood cold enough to make the best decision,  to step in the right path.

That place, at the end of the ship, usually would have provided me the impression that I was far enough from any bad things, feelings, situations, even people sometimes. And then able to see them through a different perspective and consequently silencing that bad things out.

The best thing about see the bad times at a full perspective, is that a global view seems to  provide us with a possibility to choose the best alternative for our problems almost every time.

That’s  why I’ve been praying  to God “Dear Lord, please help me feel as I did when I was at that back deck, in such a way that I can have a full perspective and make the best choices about life, people, behavior, and all things surrounding me. Dear God, I do need to see the problems smaller than they are, to solve them in a easier way and I depend upon you to do it”.

And then, the most amazing things start to happen, a thought, or better than that, the conviction that God still being so powerful and merciful as he’s ever been , and I can be sure that better things are coming,  even though I have no longer that sweet cold air blowing in my face .

P.S.: I'd like to say thanks to my dear friend Carolina Castro, who gently has revised this text.

MANY THANKS CAROL!!!

Job very well done :).

I love you Venice.

No I am not italian, indeed. I was born in Brazil on 1977. In 2009 I've suffered some losses that almost have led me to death. I consider that my reborn day was when I arrived in Venice on a very nice April morning.

I looked that place of my dreams and I was there, and that was my real life. After 16 days inside the sea, I was far from my family, my old friends and from that things that had hurted me too. I was inside of a old dream, that sometimes seemed as a nightmare, but in the biggest part of time was just a supposed unreachable dream. And I'd reached indeed.

Now I know that the hard times was exactly what did from that experience something real.

In fact, thanks God for made my dreams come true. And it happened at Venice on 2011. That's why I consider Venice as my place of birth as well .

Part of me was born on Venice on that spring morning, the part that still alive today... The part that says to me, when I look to the mirror: HEY GIRL!!! There's nothing impossible to God in your life... he led you to Venice once, and he can lead you to any place or to anything you want, you need... DON'T BE AFRAID He is under the control. JUST DO NOT STOP TO BELIEVE !!!! And I won't to stop...

 

Goals? It must mean...

Today I've been led to think on goals, and  how to reach them.
This exercise did me realize that goals are something that you want so much, but it is not easy to reach.        
However, if you be resilient, persistent and work seriously to accomplish them, you will get more than the simple objective.                                                                      
You will get a singular life experience that certainly will be very useful for the rest of your live long.                         
And then, you will realize that always when you have reached a goal, the life will give you new goals... But, this time reach them will be easier. After all, you already did it once!!!
Ok, the objectives supposed be different, but the manner to reach them you already know.

DO NOT GIVE UP!
It is time to get a greater life's experience  through this new challenge. Just keep holding on!

My Mom and Her Ghosts

One of those days, my English teacher gave me a hard task. For sure she didn’t know how the mission to talk about my mom’s daily could be harder. After all, I thought that my mom's daily duties supposed doesn't has any other exciting and / or different activity.

She has an ordinary household’s life style. She wakes up in the morning, around 8 AM or 9 AM, sometimes she does the laundry, and other time she cooks something. But her favorite tasks are sewing and doing shopping. My mom likes to sew her own clothes, or at least she customizes them.

She doesn’t use to buy and dress a cloth. She always does some change printing her personal “touch” in her wardrobe.

My teacher’s intention was make me practice the use of the third person form on English verbs.  What she didn’t know, and neither I did, was that I would have a funny history to tell her.

But, when I arrived at home that day, almost at 11PM, my mom decided to wash clothes. Yes, she was decided to do it at 11PM, late in the evening. Can you believe it?

So, I decided don't argue with her that time. She is a grown up person, she supposed knows what she can does or doesn't  to do.

So, I went to my bed, while she keeps herself busy doing laundry in the middle of the night.

But, the funniest part starts now. When I arrived at home in the next day, she came to me, absolutely astonished, and told me: “Daughter I will never do the laundry at the night anymore.”

So, I thought she became a wise person but unfortunately she didn’t. She just was afraid about ghosts.

Yes, that’s it. She has been afraid about people whom already passed away.

She told me that she was doing the laundry when she started to hear something weird. Immediately she reminded of Mr. Geraldo, our neighbor whom passed away a few years ago, and thought with herself, “OH GOSH, Mr. Geraldo came back to catch me.”

When I heard that, I didn't controlled myself and I started to laugh loudly as a crazy person. Mom, I said, YOU MUST BE JOKING!!!

My mom goes to church every single Sunday, for more than 20 years and I cannot believe that she believes on ghosts yet!!!  In fact, I don’t know yet if it is a reason to laugh or to cry.

But the good things, about this experience, were that my mom promised me does not do the laundry at night again, and, during the last English class, I learned some good rules about the third person on English verbs and some things that I must use and / or avoid in English.

P.S.: One of more important things that I must avoid is, as we used to say as crewmembers is to avoid "TOO MUCH TAKA TAKA"!!!! (Sorry, but, this part will be comprehensible just for whom lives or have lived the "ships life")

Single for while...

" I am just single for while... But till this status be changed by a God decision this is what I really think about my condition. I won't rush to change it, I will just be happy no matter what happen."
I've been facing people who are more unconfortable than me about my condition and about my way to face this fact. I'd like to know why?
I know people that got married just for a society pressure, and I can guarantee you that they did not were happy for ever.
I am not against the marriage, but I won't take one decision only because everybody are doing it.
I am just thinking about the other person supposed envolved on this  history. If  I get married, I'll do it looking foward be happy and make my husband happy as well.
If am I a good girl? Not to much... I just believe that "you got, what you give".
 Actually I rather to think that I'm not a good girl, but  a smart girl.. Simple as that!  :)

A DEFINITION OF FRIENDSHIP...

There are a lot of reasons why I decided to write this blog. And, today, fortunately,  I faced one of those reasons. I have met, here in São Paulo,  my dear friend  from Lithuania Rokas Gustas. He had come to Brazil to get your second contract as ship's crewmember, on the same ship where we have worked together at Europe at 2011.
Rokas is a very beloved person, and all of us, his friends, were looking forward to meet him again, even the ones that are not working at the ship on the moment.
And then,  I have realized that, the true friendship is something that can be defined for your feelings, behavior and commitment with one person, or even a group. And it won't be limited by the time, or religion, or color skin, or by the language or even to the countries borders...

WELCOME ROKAS WE REALLY LOVE YOU! We wish you a very nice second contract on board!!!